ME!!!

As I stated earlier, I had to find God in order to discover me.  At first I did not like the process of finding who I really am.  When you find God you can finally see how messed up you truly are. The prophet Isaiah had this experience when he saw God in the temple.  He cried: "Then said I, Woe is me! for I am undone; because I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips: for mine eyes have seen the King, Jehovah of hosts." Isa. 6:5 NIV.  Even if you have been sheltered and in church all your life, you cannot avoid this - we were all born into sin. But the discovery was not all bad. God has a way of shining His Light just a little at time so I had time to take it in and make changes.

The greatest thing I discovered about me while in the pit is that I had within me the power to affect my destiny regardless of my present circumstance.  WOW. No matter how many excuses I made about who had hurt me and how I had got into the pit in the first place - God showed me that it did not matter.  Because He had given me all the power I would ever need to make a turn around and to have the destiny that I desire.

"But this precious treasure -- this light and power that now shine within us -- is held in perishable containers, that is, in our weak bodies. So everyone can see that our glorious power is from God and is not our own" 2nd Cor. 4-7 NLT.

So here I am wallowing in my self-pity and God comes along and tells me I have the power to change (if I wanted to) the direction my life was heading in.  Now this is key - , often we don't want to change.  As awful as the pit is, we can get use to it. We can love a dysfunctional mess in a minute and refuse to let go of it.  Pitiful, isn't it?  

But power is of no use if you are blinded to it or if you refuse to use it.  It's like hearing that you have a million dollars in your checking account, ready and available for you to spend and you never check the validity of it because:
1. you don't believe the source that told you so- you think it is a hoax
2. you are too scared to find out if it is true - you are not sure you can handle it
3. you don't want to be obligated to anyone - especially if you think they will now have control over you.

What do you do when you are faced with the truth of your situation that you really don't want to deal with? 
You make a decision.  Life or Death.  Victory or Defeat.
It may sound easy but I can assure it is not.  Because when you are in a pit, the obvious is not so obvious; and your vision can be totally obscured.

Stay tuned.